Whip until soft peaks form

Ah, so long, so long since my last post.


Just finished an enormous Harry & David pear that changed my life for a few minutes. Perfectly ripe, sweet and juicy. I looked like a neanderthal eating it.


Time to get personal. I have a date with T tonight. This will be the first time it's just us - no restaurant to distract us or movie... he is house sitting and I will be cooking dinner with him and playing games. And maybe having sex. I'm kidding. Well... I've been good.


It's been three months since I've had sex (which is not that long in the scheme of things, I know) and T and I have been dating about a month and a half. We have not done the Deed and I have not spent the night. By this time I usually spread my legs. I have not technically given head either - I gave what I would like to call "Hesitation Head." (Men would hate me for this.) Usually I follow-through with the gesture, but T was never fully hard or kept losing his focus... maybe he was too drunk? Either way, I had to give up about 20 minutes into it with a sore jaw and ego. Part of it could be my problem as my head (no pun intended) isn't really into the game quite yet. T's dick is bigger than the last guy's and I need to get accustomed to it.

I had a disturbing dream last night too. Somehow I was convinced to make a porno with three girls and 5 guys, one of which was Steve Carell as Michael Scott from the Office. As soon as it was my "turn" to go down on Michael Scott, I gagged (literally, I could feel myself coughing something up) because his dick was completely covered with a really thick, white substance that looked like homemade whipped cream. (You know, the kind you make in a bowl with a whisk until your arm feels like it might fall off.) Only it wasn't whipped cream, and I knew that in my head.

I wonder if it was a premonition. I have been thinking of tonight a lot. This is the first time I will have time to just BE with a guy - neither of us have work tomorrow, no one else around, no other plans. It's exciting yet also very nerve wracking. This will be a test for T and me. If our conversation chemistry doesn't work itself out today then our future is doomed. It sounds melodramatic but it's true.

Getting back to work. You know I'll keep you posted - whomever you are!

V