On not winning $1,000.

Today I didn't win $1000.

Granted, today a lot of people didn't win $1000.

Let me clarify: Every weekday, one of my most favorite things, Sarah and Vinnie's morning show on Alice, picks a song of the day and tells you when they're playing it. If you are caller 97, you win a grand. Every day they play this song during an hour I am at work - mostly an hour when the kids are here and I could be burned at the B&GC stake for using a cell phone during club time. Today it was in the morning. My commute hour. My listening hour.

Today was supposed to be my day. It was even my song - Mercy by Duffy. Today was one of the few days I was alert and ready to take the prize. And what happened? I waited too long. As soon as the first dun dun... dundundun dun... played, I waited. I figured... this is too early to call. Finally.. 10 seconds into the song IF THAT I pick up my phone and call and never get through. I waited, second-guessed, as usual, as usual, and didn't get through. I am kicking myself kicking myself mentally and then realize...

"Vanessa... hundreds were probably calling in. This isn't a personal affront. There's always someone who might have needed it that much more than you. "

So this is me, dealing with it, dealing with it.

Still, it would have been nice to win.